angst cycle (iii) — [μ] (ix)

where i am
plain friendship is impossible
i have too much emotion
you know this

by that all
i meant a potential destination
not instant potato
but that’s the only goal
with you
that’s possible to me
there’s too much emotion
for friendship

so if that road’s denied
as you decide
then it’s denied
i must move on
another way

and i cannot move away
with that emotion

with contact
that emotion will be fueled
not cut
so i have to cut
contact
to survive

it’s bloody difficult

i apologise that this will hurt you too
but i cannot stay here
i really cannot stay here
it’s horrible